Where to Begin

I finally made it, I have to say that life has a way of one minute your on the floor and the next your on top of the world and when you least expect it, everything that you worked for is taken from you. Sure weve all experienced it and it took time before we got that break but for some it never comes. I have to say that this year for me has been a journey that i will never forget, losing my 2 brothers , along with my own setbacks I ve manage to weather the storm and move foward. By the way Im a buddhist for those that dont know or care to know. This practice has enable me to become a stronger person even in the midst of the most crucial times Ive never turn my back on this practice. People have their opinions and thats fine by me,but to the millions of members out there that do practice we know that this works for us and even though there may be some members out there who are down right stupid, insecure and callous. I have no plans of ever leaving this practice.

Today I learned that I am cancer free meaning the disease is no longer in my body, Ive been with cancer since I was 21 years of age many times doctors have said I would die and many times Ive defied them. I also was diagonesed with a DVT and that 2 is no longer there. Through my rigorous faith in the gohonzon and my determination that i wasnt going to have my uterus removed words cant describe how I feel right now. A part of me is humble and happy, the other side of me really cant feel due to me still mourning for them. Something to share Ultimately happiness rests on how you establish a solid sense of self or being. Happiness does not lie in outward appearances nor in vanity. It is a matter of what you feel inside , it is a deep resonance in your life. To be filled eachday with a rewarding sense of exhilaration and purpose,a sense of tasks accomplished and deep fulfillment,people who feel this way are happy. Those who have this sense of satisfaction even if they are extremely busy are happier than those who have time on their hands but feel empty inside.

Life is too precious to be caught up on the bullshit drama. One of the reasons why I keep my life so key not saying much for me its better that way the only one that needs to know is my son. I told him the story how i was told by doctors not to have him and how i fought tooth and nail to keep him in my belly long enough for him to make his debut, he said i was a buddah back them. I am off to clean myself........

and to the person whom i saw tuesday happy now......HMMMMMMMM