Sheckys.com

I went tonight to sheckys girls night out and have to give it 2 thumbs up, ladies if you want get almost 75 percent off clothes,shoes,bags,jewelry, and get free drinks, food and do the free samples then this is the place for you girls to go to, for a small price you get a goody bag with pretty much samples from tampons,food, aveno, books,etc or get to go for free and not get the goody bag, this is a place where all i can say is the best time ive ever had, mind you i went alone because i wanted to check it out before hand......

I will be going to philis event and probably the hamptons as well......all im saying is ladies if you have female friends i suggest you do a girls night out event and go to sheckys and enjoy the ambiance.....

Im happy to be part of this growing event and it will get better yall.....

im off im heading to class

RIP NEDA

Hey all been away for a second been busy with so many daily tasks and my buddisht activities havent had a chance to really come on. With all the mayhem in Iran people need to be thankful that they live in a free country. I don’t know if anyone saw nedas death but it left chills in me that made me think about the injustices that go on not only in Iran but other countries, and for the most part you have senators or reps talking about how obama should do something which personally it isn’t the us business to interfere in these matters if the senators or reps have an issue for those cocksuckers should go into that country and do something about it rather than voice their opinion. These individuals are hypocrites who want a all casualty war, Iran needs to solve their own issues and try to do the recount like it was stated before. We have enough problems with north korea scheduling to launch a missle 7/4 in the island of Hawaii.

I knew this was coming Ive been having dreams in which there was a red alert and we had to leave the city due to this type of shit. In this dream I was entrusted with the scrolls because I wouldn’t leave the place in which I was chanting.

One thing is for sure North Korea isn’t listening to the US and even though the president beefed up security in Hawaii, it wont be enough…..Lets not forget the Taliban ……..

The US is going through tough times, Americans need to be glad they don’t live in iran or any other country where if you commit a crime, you get stoned to death, where you don’t have any freedom and you have to fight for what is yours…..


I will say one thing before i leave Nedas death will not go undone the young voices of iran will continue to voice in the streets, This gives me more leverage to fight more, This young woman was someones sister,daughter,friend who just went to a demostration with her father i will never forget those images that i saw, The Iotola has no control at this point, this is the year of the youth to ban together and reclaim their voices, vote and country.

I will continue to pray for those young voices demostrating as well as the journalist to be safe........

Im out.....
Everyone stay safe especially those my brothers and sisters in IRAN who want a free country.....

tuesdays thoughts

How many times have you held back tears or put a fake smile to hide your anger? In most parts of the world people are taught not to cry due to the facts that they have to be strong and yet from an early age were taught to abandon our feelings but these suppressed emotions have not disappeared? They lie deep within us,slowly building up until they be explode in bursts of outrage or drawn out depressions.

Some Individuals walk through life pretending to be these ideals. They keep their outer surfaces polished but the core of who they are has a big worm crawling around inside it. This worm has been fed by anger, depression loss of the spirit and self abandonment.
In order for the surface of the person to be brilliant , luminous one has to go in and remove whats not real. That worm has been swimming around their subconscious , blocking the light of unconditional love that shines from their core.

In order to be divine one has to be willing to be 100 percent human, we have to be willing to embrace every aspect of ourselves that we judge. We need to embrace the anger, the fear, the selfishness, we need to embrace every part that weve been hiding beneath the falsely polished skin of ourselves so we can become whole and complete.

Its no big secret that we lie, we lie to please others and get approval, we lie to defend ourselves ,to hide parts of ourselves we have learned to judge as wrong or inappropriate. When we lie we are abandoning ourselves. Whenever we modify ourselves in order to receive love we are separated from self. Our greatest fear is to not receive approval. This fear is very strong because we want so badly for people to love us. When we start the journey home to ourselves we start speaking the truth. At first sometimes will do it and sometimes not. Often you will be afraid of doing it but you need to push yourself more and more to be real to stand in your power. In order to do that you have to anchor yourself a space of peace and stability

for a glimpse on what my life is about look at this

people question me on my faith and practice and some dont understand so heres the dvd so they can see for themselves why i love it so much and why i am much happier today than ive been in years.

http://www.sgi.info/mabl/sgi/popup/sgi_intro_en.html


copy and paste to your url and see for yourselves because i wouldnt trade it in the world......

I have another retreat this weekend and I cant wait, It will be his first time there and for the most part were going to have our own room thank goodness while mookie has his by himself. Both mookie and him are anticipating this because theyve both had a tough week.
As for me I have to house shopping in the slope i dont want to move to another neighborhood, I want my garden.....
Thank goodnes I was able to sell one of my brothers car,I didnt want any reminders even though I have his audi I need to sell it, I hope my friend who is like a lil brother a member enjoys it.
I was sharing with a member how people need to stop snopping in other peoples relationship because all its causes is a receipe for disaster. Case in point this couple that I know personally recently broke up why because people were all up on their business. I was shocked and at the same time not surprised by the bullness in people. My take is simple just because your relationship didnt work out or because you dont have kids or havent been married qualifies you as therapist...Helloooooooo
That is why people are so stero typical about relationships, One can be happy in a relationship, one can find that good person, people need to get out their comfort zone and look not this ohhhh let him find me or let me chant aka pray about it, sorry but that wont work, until one has develop a relationship with oneself in other words love thy self, and take full responsibilty for thier own actions shit wont happen.

and what kills me is when a woman sees a man and throws herself at him expecting the dude to want her,sorry some dudes already label you by your looks,they way you present themselves.

Its sad to see these young chickens heads as well as these middle age women play games and act stupid because they feel they cant live without a man.
One thing ive come to realize that this shit exist in all races people tend to generalize black women but in this case that doesnt seem to be the case, its in asian,hispanics and white women that tend to act foolishly.

NOw you thinking and asking what about you, me well im melo until you piss me the fuck off and then i will aim for blood... Point Blank theres no thought process in my mind, I am like the lion king, whats mine is mine, house, kids, man and any person that tries to disrupt that will go face down with a knife attach to their back.

Family means alot to me, that is why i am who i am today. Stern and not afraid to speak the truth. people have their own feelings and personally i dont care, my concern is my family point blank....

What drives women to give up jobs, leave friends and family, and take monastic vows in a faraway land? My visit to a Tibetan Buddhist nunnery in India provided some answers. 
The pale faces of the women walking in and out of the dining hall of this Tibetan nunnery are distinctly un-Tibetan: they’re Australian, European, American, and Filipino. I get my bread and soup, then join the rest of the group in the sunny courtyard.
“Oh, I remember my first time,” says one woman with a smile. “I walked out thinking, oh, my God, what have I done?” The others laugh and nod in agreement.
I’m sitting with a group of Buddhist nuns, and they’re sharing their ordination stories. Typically, Asian women receive ordination when they are young and often have no choice in the matter. But these Western nuns have made a conscious decision. They are educated, have had careers, and some even have families and children. We are at Thosamling Nunnery in Sidhpur, nestled in the Himalayas a few kilometers away from His Holiness the Dalai Lama’s residence. This is the first and only Buddhist nunnery in India for Western nuns.
Finding Faith in India
Ani (Sister) Choekyi, a 26-year-old nun from Australia, was 21 when she arrived in India. After her ordination in Sydney, she’d gone back to her full-time job. “I had consciously made a decision to remain celibate, to pray morning and night, go to retreats, and focus on the Dharma [literally, “protection”; the Buddhist means of eliminating ignorance],” she says. But working — and working with non-Buddhist people in particular — made that a challenge. Ani Choekyi knew she had to find a way to focus completely on her Dharma, so she decided to travel to India.
Thosamling Nunnery and Institute was built in 2006, after Ani Sangmo, another resident, now 49, had spent several years as a nun in India and repeatedly found that Western women had fewer options and very different struggles than their Asian counterparts. The Tibetans, refugees in India, have to support their own communities and people, and they assume that Westerners are rich. While some Tibetan monastics are able to stay in monasteries and nunneries for free, Western monks and nuns have to pay for lodging and food. In places where Tibetans are charged, Westerners pay two or three times the rate.
Nuns must pay a very nominal fee to stay in Thosamling Nunnery; other women like me, who are interested in learning about the Dharma or in undertaking retreats, are welcome to rent rooms. Our fees help offset the costs of the nunnery.
Why Buddhism?
When at age 14 Ani Yeshe Chodron lost her father, she began to question the meaning of life. She left school at 15 and became a hippie. “I wasn’t just being self-indulgent or hedonistic,” she says. “I was really looking for a spiritual path. So I lived in communes and I tried yoga, and I tried vegetarianism, and I tried fruitarianism, and I tried drugs, and I tried boys, and I tried every extreme there is. And none of those things satisfied me in the long term.” At age 17, she came to India to explore a quasi-Hindu sect known for its free-love and free-drugs culture. It was in a bookstore in Nepal that she came across Reborn in the West: The Reincarnation Masters (Da Capo Press, 1996) by Vicki Mackenzie. The book steered her toward Buddhism, and she enrolled in several meditation retreats. Six years later, she was ordained in Australia. 
For Ani Choekyi, it was also a book that made the difference. Longing for happiness in an unhappy life, one day she saw His Holiness the Dalai Lama’s face on a book titled The Art of Happiness. “Gee, that said it all,” she laughs. Plagued by questions about why things were as they were, she says, “The law of cause and effect was probably the thing that hooked me into Buddhism. If you do this, you’ll get this result. Logical.”
Dharma in the Daily Life
At any given time, Thosamling is home to about 15 nuns and the same number of non-monastic women, although there is room for 80 residents, and the nunnery temple can hold at least 120. The institute hosts classes for Buddhists — nuns, monks, and even lay practitioners — who want to learn the Tibetan language and the Dharma. Every day, the nuns get up before dawn, pray in the temple, and meet in the dining hall for breakfast. Some eat alone; some sit in groups and talk about their lessons. Others practice learning Tibetan with each other. And some, I discover after getting a stare but no verbal response to my small talk about the weather, are on a silent retreat that can last for several days and months.
Western nuns come after facing unique challenges in their own countries, where they’re often seen as escapists trying to run away from the responsibilities of a normal life. “Living in the West is a bit like living as a fish on the shore,” says Ani Sangmo, who was ordained at age 37 after having practiced Buddhism for seven years. “There are not so many places you can stay where you have the direct guidance from a teacher around you. It is so much different to live in India, close to the Tibetans, and study and practice in their environment. They help you and teach you not only the Dharma but also about the customs and their rich tradition, which is very interwoven with Buddhism.”
Going Home
“Sixty to seventy percent of Western monks disrobe because even though they have vows against going out and working in a lay job, they have no options,” says Ani Yeshe. “They’re basically almost held in contempt in the West, unfortunately.” But this, she says, is a good thing, because it makes them give up seeking praise and fame and forces them to look inside. “You know that it’s not about the outside,” she says. “It’s more about how much you’re torn about your own ego, your own delusions, your own pride. That’s the hardest battle.”
After finding little support in Australia, Ani Yeshe left her Dharma center, and with her robes and bowl, set out to find what the world had to offer. Every day, she’d wake up not knowing where she would sleep, what she would eat, what she would do. “I found that with that kind of surrender, there’s a certain kind of power that comes. . . . You find that your true home is in your heart and not in a place.”
Soon after this, HarperCollins offered her a chance to write a book about her life, which she did. Everyday Enlightenment: How to Be a Spiritual Warrior at the Kitchen Sink was published in 2006. She also started teaching the Dharma to people in Australia who were interested in Buddhism.
As nuns, Western women encounter some interesting reactions from people, both in India and in their home countries. People sometimes wonder if the nuns belong to cults; they’re sometimes regarded with awe, other times with suspicion; and more than one nun says she’s been wished good luck with her chemotherapy because of her bald head.
“I miss being invisible,” says Ani Yeshe. “When you’re a lay person you can go to movies — no one will blink. But when you’re a monk or a nun, you’re really obvious. They don’t see you anymore. They see the Dharma,” which can be a blessing. “There’s a lot of freedom to being a monk or a nun, because my relationships with people are much more pure. They know that I don’t want anything from them. I don’t want to manipulate them; I don’t want to possess them, and they trust me.”
Sex and Monasticism
One of the biggest challenges to being a nun is celibacy. Ani Choekyi was in a six-year relationship when she decided to become a nun. She was only 17 when she first started dating her then-boyfriend. But in a way, she’s thankful for celibacy. “I don’t feel obligated to do these things in society now because people can physically see that I’m out of the contest.” Ani Choekyi wanted to give her life to the Dharma. “In Buddhism, we think that if you take a lot of vows, it’s more powerful,” she says. “Everything you do is more powerful. So it’s like a pressure cooker. You have fewer options, and because there are fewer options, there’s more clarity, there’s more power, there’s more focus. It’s more intense.”
It’s also about declaring your faith, to yourself and to others, she says. “If I externally change my appearance, every time I get dressed, every time I look in the mirror, every time I look down, I’m reminded that I’m committed to changing my mind. Because if I don’t have that level of responsibility, I would easily rationalize my negative behaviors.” She doesn’t believe, however, that monasticism is for everyone, nor does she believe that someone is not a serious practitioner if he or she is not a monk or a nun.
“If the joys didn’t outweigh the sorrows, I would have given up long ago,” says Ani Yeshe. “When you know that this freedom of spirit is possible, when you know that this purity of mind exists and that you can experience it with your own heart, then to give up everything else is not so hard.”

Watching american idol

Im here watching american idol and i swear paula is lip synching because the cameras werent doing their usual close up and aside from she was great. 2 kudos now no doubt i will be nice because all i will say is that their played the fucked out. I know the recession is here but shit, please dont go on tour.......
My son is telling me he wants to celebrate his bday a day early with his friends instead of having a home BBQ he wants to go to his favorite sushi restaurant and go to the movies. I have a surprise for him aside from wat he was given already. He wants to do something for me but i told him someone has taken care of that. NO they didnt get rid of my lil kelly clarkson look alike NOW IM MAD SHE NEEDED TO STAY they should of gotten of that chris or that gay lost jonas brother aside from that im not watching idol at this point....lil kims new song needs work because tpain is doing more vocals than her and the video sucks, kim has better taste wth happen she better get the best producers, love the chix no doubt ...
in other news Maddoff is a whore cheating on his wife no surprise this is ongoing cycle as women age they let themselves go or dont have the energy or dont seduce theyre man that another female takes over sad but true........
more rain dammmmmmmm
I want a doggie ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
okay im off